Great weekend!!!

Besides ummm.. Friday.  I plead the 5th.

Now...PICS OF THE WEEKEND!!

Rhiannon (: You sexy beastt.

Get it Tonii !

Look I cleaned my bathroom!!

Thankyou Collinsville.

You have given me the lamest/funniest sunday night of my life.

Time heals all wounds.

Or maybe "Kidd" does?

Like, im always going to have a thing for "Jerk'. But, now that im just so tired, like im metally just soo tired of it all that its not what I want anymore.  I don't want anyone, but if I can choose someone to waste time with, its "kidd". Ohh "Kidd".

Im really robbing the cradel with this one.

I don't think I could ever feel for him like I did with Jerk, but thats what makes me feel so safe with him. I'm not worried about him wanting me. If he decides he doesn't anymore I really wont care either wayy. But, Im starting to get the feeling he likes me way more then I like him..  I have been so tied up with this whole wilde thing that I really haven't talked to him much. But, after the last couple weeks when I have been ready to move on, Kidd and I have become really close.

I decided he was something more when he came into the gym a week a go. I call his name and he walks over in all his Sporty Jock apeal and hugs me. He smelt goooood.  We talked a little bit then as he was walking away I was like, "Hey! Are we hanging this weekend?"

He turned around, winked, and said " Of Course"

My friend Lindsay gasped. loll. "Did he seriously just wink at you? Alexa whooo is that boyy??"

Good question. I want to find out.

IN OTHER NEWS.

I have become obsessed with football.(Watching the colts vs. Ravens right now)

 I am aplying for jobs. I ADORE TONI.

It was! I spent the whooooleee day with toni!

Xangaaa. I saw him... He acted like nothing had happened.

Being totally nice to me. I just straight up ignored him.

I was shaking. I couldn't think.

Then Joe walks in... I couldn't help but laugh, Just my luck. Im sure he thinks I planned it that way. I still remember being in the mexican resturant with Wilde, and he all of a sudden putting down his fork, looking hard at me and saying, " I don't want you around him"

Me: "Are you serious? "

Wilde " Yes I am. I mean it Alexa, he isn't someone I want you around"

Me " Why can't anyone just trust me??"

Wilde " Its not that I dont trust you, I don't trust him"

By that time, he was starting to yell and people were staring. I remember thinking, he actually cares.. But, I also didn't speak to him for an hour after that, haaa.  Well, I was just paying Wilde when Joe walks in, I go to the back of the gas station and we talk, I leave with him. Wilde saw it alll. And I'm glad.

God, Im still in love with him. Im one hundred percent crazy about him. I could of had Joe last nightt.. But, all I could think about was him. But, its sooo over.  whether I like it or not. So, now I have to go along with it.

I may be playing gamess.. But, its the only thing thats making me feel better right now...

horrible I know..

It hurts... Seeing him.  I have never felt this way about someone..

 I have never been hung up over someone..